I was a sincere student of the self-doubt academy. Every time I tried attempting of doing something inspiring in my life the phobia of failure would attack me and I would give up on the ideas as I would feel absolutely certain that they will fail. The sense of not being good enough would always interfere with my charged thoughts, emotions, and actions.
But a while back something happened that changed everything, and no I didn’t do any self-development program.
What happened was internal, one of the signs that I was able to see was that I wanted to do things perfectly. Perfectionism never allowed me to make that start because I was always focused on the perfect outcome and not on the process. The monkey mind would shout to me that you are not big enough, or skilled enough, or rich enough or intelligent enough to aspire and the dream didn’t seem to be perfect. The monkey mind had no other work except swing aimlessly from branch to branch throughout my mind and creates doubts. The default belief of not being good enough was slowly paralyzing my self-esteem and self-efficacy.
However, I was glad to realize that all that I have learned in default can be unlearned and intentional learning can be installed. The only way to deal with the fear of failure was to make that start. It didn’t matter whether I had to equip my dreams with well-defined goals or tasks but what mattered to me was developing the focus of doing the required work, giving form to the ideas, and bringing it into existence. There was no pressure to put hours of action to prove a point and overwhelm me, but the realization that even 5-10 minutes of a day of doing the required work is sufficient to hold on to the inspiration.
The power to defeat fear lies in the actions and not results. Self-doubt disappears only when we are ready to get rid of whatever is holding us back and that happens when we intentionally take out the time to do the required work daily to pursue our passion.
